on page 171 of order of the phoenix, sirius and remus get up from the dinner table at grimmauld place, look at each other, and then sirius rips remus’ sweater off so violently that the buttons fly off the wall. they passionately make out for several full minutes while everyone else at the table watches and nods thoughtfully to themselves.
"now hold on a minute," hermione says, being logical; "this doesn’t prove anything. let’s ask to be sure."
everyone agrees that this is a good idea.
"remus?" hermione asks. remus stops licking sirus’ neck long enough to look at her. "are you—" her voice drops to a whisper "are you queer?”
"finally," remus says, "christ, yes," and then he sticks his tongue into his boyfriends mouth.
i don’t know how you missed it?? it’s right there in the text
OHHHHHHHHHHHH MAN OK it is time to do this thing this sad sad very sad thing gosh okay like everyone p much just has every marauder as being like “no that’s cool m8 ur our friend” but i think that like i think there’s more to it than that
- like yes def 100% they accept remus all of them but i think that takes a while
- and i think it takes a while for sirius especially because he’s grown up like
- in this world of dark magic and evil wizards and creatures and i’m sure that like he’s under the impression that werewolves ARE evil
- like having grown up a pure blood and his family being like 100% terrible and classicist and bloodist or whatever u want to call it like
- despite sirius rebelling sO HARD AGAINST ALL OF THAT there’s definitely got to have been some bits that stuck to him you know
- and they found out about remus so young like they were what twelve when they figured it out and that’s not nearly enough time for sirius to have truly outgrown and detached himself from his family
- and their styles of thought and stuff
- and the thing with that is that REMUS KNOWS THIS HE KNOWS THAT SIRIUS ISN’T COMPLETELY DIFFERENT FROM HIS FAMILY
- at least with some things like sirius is obviously the white sheep in a heard of black ones but when you grow up in an environment that sirius did like
- you can’t help but be brainwashed into believing some things you know
Sirius catching Remus daydreaming and he asks him what he’s thinking about and jokingly says “was it about me?” and Remus flushes and stammers and Sirius can’t stop smiling for the rest of the day and thinks about that moment a whole lot for weeks and even sometimes tries to remember every last detail of it when he’s alone in Azkaban
FUC K I STARED AT THIS FOR LIKE TWO MINUTES AND THEN GOT IT AND AND
sirius wearing a white garter belt with red and green christmas bells on it that jingles when they walk
sirius in a banana hammock with christmas trees on it
sirius in a lopsided christmas hat and nothing else
s i r u i s
remus always remembering to pack an extra pair of socks on full moon nights because sirius continuously forgets his own. every time.
((sirius secretly just likes wearing remus’ knobby wool socks because they remind him of the jumpers remus wears))
“I want you to picture Professor Snape in your grandmother’s clothes”
#remus what are you doing #this is a school for children #don’t think we don’t see what’s going on here #don’t think we don’t see the old school vendetta #james and sirius and peter there is spirit #little voices at the back of your head whispering #’go on moony. tell him to put snivellus in an old lady hat. go on go on!’ #sirius doing that supposedly seductive little pouty face at the back your mind#james rolling his eyes at it and aiming a half-hearted kick at sirius’ shin #peter following suit because he’d pretty much follow james’ suit anywhere #resulting in an all out scuffle of the imaginary boys in your head #and for a split second you think about ignoring it all #being responsible #saying something professorly #but you’re at hogwarts #and the boys in your head are still punching and flailing like they always did #and you’re not quite sure you’re ready to let that go just yet #so you tell the boy - frank’s kid - to put snape in a dress #and just for a second the boys in your brain stop fighting and look up to smile at you #and then of course sirius elbows peter in the chest in a totally underhanded and patently black move #and everyone is back to kicking the crap out of each other #and swearing #and cursing #and laughing like it’s the last thing they’ll ever do #and really it was wasn’t it
Remus wanting to take some time away from the other Marauders to sort of clear his head and deal with some things after the whomping willow incident
Remus sitting alone at lunch for a few days afterwards and bringing a book so people won’t talk to him and so he doesn’t have to look at James and Sirius and Peter and everyone else staring pityingly at him as he sits there all by himself
Lily sitting down next to him because she knows what it’s like to feel completely alone and betrayed by your best friend and he doesn’t exactly tell her everything that happened but she listens to what he’s willing to share and they end up chatting about other things too and of course Remus still acutely feels the absence of the marauders but he doesn’t feel entirely alone
sirius likes to think he’s really hardcore and punk rock but really he gets very distraught over papercuts and doesn’t like to sleep without saying goodnight to all of his friends before bed and he can’t function without at least 10 hugs a day and he gets really mopey when he feels left out and if he had his way all of his sandwiches would have the crusts cut off
I really really really want to write a scene where Sirius is like “daddy can you pass the salt” and Remus goes for the salt at the same time as Orion and Sirius just sits there totally content with the chaos he’s caused
Alas I cannot think of a situation where Orion, Sirius, and Remus would all be sitting peacefully at a table eating so that fic just wasn’t meant to be
James being like is that the sweater you’ve had since 5th year what the fuck remus
I keep thinking about Sirius ‘lying low at Lupin’s’ and how incredibly awkward it would be, because fuck you if you think that Sirius wouldn’t have been even the slightest bit hurt that Remus had believed he had it in him to kill their best friend. And Remus would be feeling guilty about not trusting him, and they hadn’t even had a chance to talk properly because Sirius had to go into hiding after POA and I just want to know what happened between them.
There’d have been a lot of edging around each other, trying to find a place in each other’s lives again, trying to slip back into their old friendship and then getting frustrated and upset when it didn’t work, and then starting to build a new relationship all over again.
Sirius wouldn’t be able to look at Remus without seeing the friends that he lost, whose deaths he was blamed for, and Remus wouldn’t be able to look at Sirius without seeing, not only the ghosts of the Potters, but also of Sirius, because he really was just a ghost of the man he had once knew - had once loved.
And eventually they’d settle back into something akin to their old relationship, but it would never be the same. Because they’d lost James - the very force that had brought their little group together - and the ghosts of their pasts would always be hanging above their heads and oh, I made myself sad.
"WHO are you making out with," james will demand seventh year, loudly, betrayed bc sirius has not told him and there are HICKEYS on his NECK. "i keep looking on the map but all i ever see u do is hanging out while remus studies in that empty transfiguration class room, what the heck man."
if ur ever feeling sad just think about Remus helping Sirius study for OWLS by taking off a piece of clothing for every 5 questions Sirius gets right.